Jennette McCurdy, best known for her role in “iCarly” is revealing new abuses she was forced to endure as a child actor.
In a New York Times In a profile posted Wednesday promoting her new memoir, “I’m Glad My Mom Died,” the outlet reports that McCurdy writes in her book that she was once photographed in a bikini during a Nickelodeon dress fitting by an (unnamed) intimidating figure. which also encouraged her to drink alcohol. McCurdy was a teenager when she worked at the chain.
It’s unclear if his mother, Debra, who died in 2013 of breast cancer, was present during this particular incident, but according to excerpts paraphrased by the Times, she likely would not have intervened on her son’s behalf.
He had apparently told his daughter that instances like this were the price of fame.
“Everybody wants what you got,” McCurdy recalled his mother telling him.
This wasn’t the only abuse McCurdy suffered while at Nickelodeon. She also wrote that she was supposed to get her own “iCarly” spinoff on the network, but ended up landing a co-starring spot on “Sam & Cat,” which paired her with future pop music sensation Ariana. Great.
According to the Times profile, McCurdy wrote that Nickelodeon prevented him from accepting other career opportunities during his time on “Sam & Cat.” However, this rule did not apply to Grande.
“What finally undid me was when Ariana came in whistling with excitement because she had spent the night before playing charades at Tom Hanks’ house,” McCurdy recalls in the memoir. “That was the moment I broke down.” The actress further claims that after “Sam & Cat” was canceled in 2014, she turned down a $300,000 offer to not speak publicly about her time at Nickelodeon. (The network declined to comment to the Times.)
McCurdy says in his memoir that his pursuit of acting was done solely to please his mother. Debra (whose own parents didn’t want her to continue acting) had her start auditioning for roles at age six. Debra seemed to display manipulative behavior when her daughter didn’t get a job.
In an excerpt from his memoirs published by weekly entertainment, McCurdy recalls sitting in a booster seat in her mother’s car after failing to get a job as a child because she couldn’t cry on cue during the audition.
McCurdy writes of the mixed emotions she felt at not booking the job and tried to express to her mother that she no longer wanted to act because it made her feel “uncomfortable”.
McCurdy described her mother’s face in response to her resignation as looking “like she just ate a lemon. She contorts herself in a way that terrifies me.”
“You can’t give up!” she sobs This was our chance! This was our chance!’” McCurdy wrote.
Then her mother hit her hand on “the steering wheel, accidentally honking the horn. Her mascara runs down her cheeks… her hysteria scares me and she demands to be taken care of.”
McCurdy explains that he tried to defuse the situation by telling his mother “it doesn’t matter” and suggesting that they listen to a song his mother liked. McCurdy said that once the song began to play, her mother “gidly” began to sing, “having changed her mood.”
McCurdy has also been open in the past about how her mother sexually abused her. In an interview with People last year, McCurdy told the outlet that Debra “insisted on giving her breast and vaginal exams” until she was 17, and “never let her shower on her own.”
“It was just the distance from her that allowed me to be healthy,” McCurdy told People at the time.
McCurdy’s memoir “I’m Glad My Mom Died” will be available on August 9.